went to the casino. won some money. looked at some motorcycles. walked around on my bum ankle. took pictures with skeeza's digital camera. i need to cop a digital camera. chatting. thinking about doing some graffiti and/or stenciling. thinking about moving out of my mom's place and into a place with skeeza. thinking about reading some more books. (i do a lot of thinking, action does not aways follow.) as dull as this post might seem. i am very happy right now.
peace ya'll.  ¶ 1:25 PM 1 comments

  Believe in your ugliness and insecurities. It's what makes you b-e-a-utiful.




(That and your tits.)  ¶ 10:57 AM 0 comments

  Your hood ain't no harder than mine, we all thuggin' Why can't we let go of these things?
There should be nothing holding us back.
I am tired of feeling held back.
I would imagine most of you are too.  ¶ 10:02 AM 0 comments

  I love the smell in the air today.  ¶ 2:23 PM 0 comments

  Go   ¶ 9:51 PM 0 comments

  i could use a little inspriation. anyone heard that $2 million dollar beat yet?  ¶ 3:18 AM 0 comments

  i hate caring what you guys think of me. i do care though.  ¶ 1:19 AM 0 comments

  i just should have taken the pills.  ¶ 12:41 AM 1 comments

  I am going to be reading Until I Find You by John Irving. I think it will be interesting. Probably hit close to home for me, I am assuming.
I really want to go to Minneapolis, MN. I need to walk around an Ikea store.

What is everyone in the (blog) world up to? I would really like to know. Maybe hearing some stories will give me some inspiration.  ¶ 11:48 PM 0 comments

  life is amusing.  ¶ 11:55 PM 0 comments

  What, Bleep, Know? There is nothing like the present. We have lived our past. We 'remember' our past experiences. I have made mine up. I love the feeling I have right now. I have thought of many things I can or would like to do. Anything seems possible. I just need to start doing the living part. This could prove tough for me, but I know I'm not the only one, nor will I be the last. The therapist says I am making very good progress. I can tell that without her acknowledging it, but it is nice to see someone else can see it as well.

I am just now realizing that I am 22. I am still young enough to make my own mistakes (and still be learning from yours). It is weird to me to look at all the pictures I do on the internet, see all these people my age, seemingly having a blast and noticing I have never really been in that situation. I don't feel like I have believed that sometimes nothing really matters but the fun you are having right now. I have a couple of friends that I have felt like this around and I love them so much for it, but I feel like an observer. I need to participate. I don't really know what that entails, but I need to try and find out.

I have felt like I missed a part of growing up for a long time now. I now know everyone did. It might not be the same part I missed, but maybe they missed something I take for granted everyday of my life. We are all still growing up.



Remember your local libraries.  ¶ 11:10 PM 1 comments