ok Am I too nice? Do I think too much? Do I care too much? I would do anything for anyone if I felt they deserved it and I feel that that is not ok. I should be meaner for people to want to be around me. I am very selective about who I let around me, but when people get to know me they seem to appreicate me, but just as an idea, as if I am not real....  ¶ 10:45 PM 0 comments

  Cam'ron & A Bathing Ape I like Cam'ron. Purple Haze was a nice enough album. That Kanye song, "Down And Out," still makes me want to drive hecka fast. Anyway, him and the DipSet posse are on a role about calling everyone "swagger jackers." Other folks are taking their style. I won't deny that they have a style. They look fly if you are into that shit. (Which, I am.) But get off your own dicks. Some people have no style and they copy rappers, actors, people "on the corner" and others to get one. So be it. I figured Cam and Juelz, at least, would have better shit to worry about then who is jacking their swagger. Jim Jones is the exception. I think the world of Jim Jones by-the-by, but dude seems bored with his life, so he just finds shit to get mad about. Basically, I am trying to say DipSet needs to get off their own dicks. I love DipSet, but shit ya'll's fashion icon is Barney. Ya'll just used to worry about effin' hoes, smokin' piff, and cuttin' coke. Pointless thought.

A Bathing Ape. $300 hoodies. Whatevs. Ripping off Dunks and charging $500. Fly. The logo. Hecka fly. My question is why. Nigo has commented on how the brand is a reflection of youth culture now (and in the 90's basically). "Just a bunch of lazy apes sitting around not doing shit." (Not an actual quote, but that is what he is saying.) I am lazy, but I don't need to spend $90 on a limited edition tee to remind myself that I ain't shit. If I had family money, I might squander some gouda on it, but I don't think I would respect myself. Self respect is officially in question for the world at this point anyway.

These are a couple of things I have thought about lately and just felt like putting out there. Whatevs.

EDIT: I just read a sweet interview with a dude named Bobby Hundreds. His is fly. He talks about Bathing Ape. Points out some things. Nigo is fly. SMART. Where did I put those three hundred dollar bills? I need a new hoodie.  ¶ 8:19 PM 1 comments

  I have been really mean lately. Part of me enjoys it, but I know the only reason I am doing it is because I realized it will never be. I feel betrayed and I don't know how to, properly, deal with my feelings. call me emotional. it's true. i accept it. too bad other people can't.  ¶ 8:13 PM 0 comments

  Spring Break Hellscape
Everytime I read one that says, "Yours in christ, etc," I smile.

I think I need to move out of the basement apartment I live in. Then I should think about moving out of Iowa.

enjoi - bag of suck - dvd
This video will put some sunshine in my day.  ¶ 2:19 AM 0 comments

  This is not working anymore.  ¶ 11:14 PM 0 comments

  Oh shit.... I have the best girlfriend ever!

She got me Ghostface Killah's stinky, wet, smelly thermal hooded sweatshirt and his equally smelly brown bandana!!!

True love!  ¶ 3:06 PM 0 comments

  iTunes does not recognize my ipod. come on apple.  ¶ 10:10 PM 2 comments

  hmmm.... her mom likes me too much.  ¶ 9:25 PM 0 comments